live it, fuck it, love it

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The past few weeks I have purposely alienated myself (shut ppl out, whatever the fuck u wanna call it, I did it!!) from everybody.  It's how I deal, it's how I think when times are hard, I take time to myself to pray, think, and eat. I need those moments, I had to say FUCK everyone else and HELLO Jequise what do u want?  During this process I cried, became sick, indulged in art( i paint now) and music, lost inspiration, gained it back, it was the longest I went without taking a single photo, I even cried to my mom.. who still doesn't quite get it and asked did I need to see a shrink but aye progress comes with time.  I came to the conclusion: 
I'm A Happy Mess

1. I want to move out but I'll be broke if I do
2. I want/need a better relationship with my mom
3. School hates me and I hate it
4. I wanna work and save more so when I do move out I'll have furniture
5. Clothes and Photography make me the happiest
6. I'm gonna have to disappoint to get to the place I wanna be
7. My happiness is important
8. I'm giving myself 2 years to get the hell out of Tennessee
9. I'm going to Fashion Week
10. I'm in love with an amazing Man
11. Everything happens for a reason, I'm trusting God
12. I'm gonna love and keep loving
13. Speak my mind more.. (shoulda gave someone the big fuck off today)
14. I've fucked up, learned from it, I'm gonna listen to my life now
15. I'll never stop dreaming BIG

now playing: melt my heart to stone- adele

now playing: fuck you- cee lo

now playing: viva la white girl- gym class heroes

now playing: fly niggas do fly thing- wiz khalifa & curren$y

now playing: so appalled- kanye west

now playing: avril 14th- aphex twin

now playing: sometimes- erykah badu

now playing: sweet love- anita baker

16. I miss Bella


Rachel B. said...

I love and admire your honesty. This by far is my favorite post of yours.
-Rachel xoxo
p.s. could I feature you on mine?

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