I Need Light

 Boring Saturday playing around with f stops, shutter speed and the lighting of my room.  A studio would be lovely at times, there are days I just long for artificial light, instead of the one shining through my window.  I no longer have this hair and it's kind of weird, I'll miss my blondie but I need change, I need to keep moving. These shots would have been better if i was able to sit still for 5 seconds, but hey it's a learning process.

p.s. photos of the long hair soon, I just have to find something cool to do with it

been a while

I  haven't written anything on here in a while, haven't had any to say, letting my pictures speak from themselves. I'm in a love hate relationship with Betty, I love and want her, then I want to push her away and never look at her again, then I want her all over again.  I'm questioning my passions more than anything right now, going through the motions.. I'm being sucked dry loosing my control and freedom, most evening I'm happy, other days I'm just kinda there.  Things are changing, I'm ready to grow, I need it....

This dress makes happy..it still has scars that I play with when I tried to turn it into a skirt at one point, I feel like my hair has this glow whenever I take pictures in the sun.  I'm pretty sure I'm the only one who notices though. I need it to be the weekend, but I always need that. 

it's just hair

it's me not being afraid

same place

so i've been to this warehouse a ga zillion times alone, and last thursday i finally got inside but when i went back today if felt different. it felt like I shouldn't have been there, not that i would get caught but more of something was watching me or could have been inside there... i dunno it just felt weird.. maybe all the creeks and other noises just gave me the heeby geebies or maybe it was my common sense saying bitch dont go in there alone.. i always do my self portraits by myself i'm gonna go back tomorrow 

i spent my fourth running errands sitting on a porch, catching my granny up on my life, water fights, and craving liquor preferably whiskey or a grateful dead, i wish people in my family liked pictures more..smh

grey chucks

work has crippled me.. everything is always set, i got into work mode and begin working on typical poses to better myself there

i hadn't shot in a good two weeks and trying to shoot on manual became hard all over again.. but i got back into the swing of it

its good to have friends who go random places with me and let me play with my camera

honestly it just felt good to not tell anyone to cross their arms, put their hands in their pockets, or hands on their hips

i need new batteries for my flash

suppose to get my hair cut tuesday, but i like it the way it is
his eyes remind me of twilight